27 Miles and a little race envy

Saturday morning when I got up to go running, it was around 70 degrees.  No, I’m not lying, it was epic.  In fact, I’m pretty sure this is what I looked like..

running happy

I ran six miles and I would have kept going except that Saturday was the annual ‘Junk in the Trunk’ sale in Safety Harbor and I really wanted to go to it.  Unfortunately, we didn’t find anything we wanted, or even liked, and I found myself regretting that I didn’t run longer.

On Sunday, the temps were already creeping back up but it was still coolish.  I left around 7 and headed down to the park.  I though it would be cooler that running through the neighborhood.  I didn’t realize the annual pretty in pink 15K was yesterday but it was and it runs right through the park.

At first I was cheering on the runners who passed me but the more runners I saw the more crowded the trail became and a few of them almost ran into me because we were running in opposite directions.

I decided to head back to the neighborhood rather than finish the trail in the park and I was really trying to enjoy my run but instead I was just getting mad.  I’ve run that race before and it’s not only fun, it’s in my own neighborhood and the more I thought about it and the fact that I wasn’t running it now, the madder I became.

mad

I got in my own head.  That’s all.  I managed to run 3 miles before calling it a day.

When I got home I thought about it for a while and then I realized that I still managed to run 27 miles last week.  I managed to get out there every day, regardless of the temperature and how I was feeling, and run.  I may not be where I was a few years ago but I have will power and strength and I know soon, I’ll get back to that point and then I’ll get even better.  It wont happen over night, but it will happen.

As far as the rest of the weekend goes, MacGyver and I spent a little time shopping and I worked out in the yard a bit.  MacGyver had a bit of a cold so I spent a lot of time in the man cave building, guess what?  More wreaths.

another wreath

The one in the window is the largest one I’ve made.  It’s around 32′ in diameter.  I put it in the window and took a picture of it and then posted it online to sell.  I sort of want to keep it though.  How many wreaths are too many?  Two?  Four?  Six? Maybe it’s time for me to start on the Christmas ones…..

What did you do this weekend?

Have you ever gotten runner envy seeing a race that you aren’t running?

Run, inhale, repeat

I was trying to find the perfect way to sum up exactly how I feel on Mondays and then, I found this meme.

mondays

It could be worse I guess, I could actually have to leave my house to go to work and that would really suck so I’m not gonna complain…..anymore.

I ran 22 miles last week in 6 days.  I’m most proud of the fact that I ran 4 miles a day for four of them and 2 miles for the other 2 days.  I’m most proud because after never having breathing problems before in my entire life, until last year, this is what I use every single day…

inhalers

I feel like that’s a lot of inhalers.  Fortunately I only have to use them twice a day but because it’s never been a part of my normal routine, it’s been rather hard to remember but I’m working on it.

I did go to see my pulmonologist last week and she is running a battery of tests this week and another scan and she also referred me to a cardiologist whom I’ll be seeing in another week.  She thinks she has the answers for me. Without really getting into it too much, I will just tell you that I was already given the diagnosis 10 years ago but there was no biopsy and since I couldn’t get definitive proof I rejected it.  I hope I can get definitive proof this time but since it doesn’t seem all that important now that lungs are involved.  I just want to focus on feeling better, and running.  Running as much as I can.

Did anyone see the Chicago marathon?  Or run it?  I saw this sign that someone made on reddit and it cracked me up.

chi town marathon sign

MacGyver and I had a pretty chill weekend.  I cleaned the hell out of my house and we hit a shit ton of garage sales on Saturday.  I also worked on some more wreaths because apparently, I’ve got issues.  I have turned the man cave into the craft cave.  Don’t tell MacGyver though because he hasn’t figured it out yet.

wreath

I think the dogs are ready for fall.  Boomer is especially sick of the heat and they love when I work outside on the lanai because it’s one of their favorite places…besides the sofa.

besties

Such besties.

Even though the lanai is still too hot in the afternoon, I take my coffee out there every morning.  It’s serene and beautiful.

my pond

Do you see the reflection of the heron on the water?  See what I mean?  It’s so pretty.  No matter how I’m feeling or what’s going on in my life, I always feel better when I’m out there looking at the water.

Unfortunately right now I have to take everything off of the dock and store it in the garage because we might actually be getting a little hurricane.  One thing is certain, it’s never boring around here.

How was your weekend? 

Do you use an inhaler and if so, why?

Tuesday tangent, running through illness

I’m in a bit of a funk.  Lately I’ve been either uninspired or frustrated.  Less than a year ago I would run 5-6 miles several days a week and a long run of 10 or more miles on the weekend.  Every damn week.

In January of this year I ran 172 miles and in March I had a long run of 16 miles on the Legacy Trail but since April any run longer than 3 or 4 miles is hard for me and it’s even more frustrating because I know physically I’m just not right.  Breathing shouldn’t be so hard.

monthly running stats

I know my doctors are trying or at least, I think they are, but it doesn’t seem like enough.  It really seems like it takes forever for each and every test and then dealing with the waiting only to be told, we still don’t have answers.  Yeah, it’s frustrating but I’m still moving forward.

Thankfully I’m smart enough to realize that doctors don’t always have the answers and that diet and exercise can make a world of difference when it comes to our health and so, I push on, and I’ll continue to do so but I’m not giving up on the answers because I need to know.

It helps to read about other people who know what it feels like to have an illness that mystifies, like Jacqueline Alnes.  She suffers from a seizure disorder or something like it.  Her doctors still don’t know.  She continues to run.

And when I need a little inspiration, I think of Gabe Grunewald who has run during chemo treatments and continues to compete despite being diagnosed with stage 4 cancer.  Runners like Gabe make you feel like you can do anything.  And you can.

And even though the thought of ‘only’ running 3 or 4 miles a day seems daunting and disappointing, I still run.  And while I press on with endless doctors appointments, and testing. and surgeries, and the possibility that I may never know the answer, I’ll continue to run.