Sometimes I wish I could shut my brain off, you know, like the kitchen lights. I’d just be able to flip a switch and that’s it, no more activity until I turn it on again.
I said sometimes for a reason because if I am being totally honest, the truth of the matter is that the way my brain works helps me to be a better runner. Not being able to zone out and forget about everything actually works in my favor for any run lasting over 30 minutes. Just this morning I ran 6 miles and at the very same time I figured out how to solve all my landscaping problems in the front yard and I determined that plantation shutters are a much better option than wood blinds. Now all I need to do is convince MacGyver that we absolutely must have them and that he needs to install them. See? Not being able to shut my brain off is actually a good thing; unless you’re MacGyver, he might not agree.
Unfortunately I tend to over think everything as well. That’s probably the reason I’m still typing my blog post on a computer that has a sticky b key which forces me to delete a lot of b’s, and a missing down arrow key that leaves me confused when I need to scroll. I just cannot bring myself to buy a new one because a, this one still works, (for the most part) and b, I will have to learn how to use a new one. You just have no idea the anxiety and panic this creates deep within my soul. It’s torture.
I also probably shouldn’t over-share but I’ve been wearing the same pair of disposable contact lenses for 2 months! Mind you, these are the kind you are supposed to throw out after 2 weeks but I just can’t do it. I have another pair in reserve but it’s my last pair and I just know as soon as I throw this pair out and pop in the new ones, I’ll lose one or rip one, and I’ll be forced to immediately schedule an eye exam, and I need to prepare for that because it’s a very big deal. It’s chock full of decisions like which eyeglass frames to choose and how many pairs of contact lenses will I need? That’s just stress I don’t need right now.
I am pretty fortunate that MacGyver loves and accepts me just the way I am because I’m pretty sure when he was younger and thinking about his dream wife he didn’t imagine conversations like this one:
Me: I need a new computer.
MacGyver: Why can’t you just use mine?
Me: Because then I would have to learn how to use your computer and then when I get a new one, I’d have to learn that one too. It’s an extra learning process that I just can’t even fathom right now.
MacGyver: That’s the most ridiculous thing you’ve ever said. (Actually it’s not.) They have the same operating system and it’s basically the same computer.
Me: No, no it’s not. They have their own quirks. My b and arrow keys are messed up. I’m sure your computer has its own quirks too, which I’ll need to learn. I’ll have to relearn which keys work, and any that don’t, and how long the battery lasts, and all kinds of things and that takes time. And then I’ll get a new computer and I’ll have to learn it too. It’s too much. It makes my head hurt.
MacGyver: Yeah, I know how you feel.
Most of our conversations go that way.
The good news is, the computer issue and the contact lens situation are just little problems I’ll be able to figure out the solutions for on my future runs, and I’m pretty sure MacGyver will be overjoyed when he hears the solutions because more often than not, they will involve him in some way. See, everything works out now doesn’t it?
What do you think about when you’re running?
Are you an over thinker?