Running, Training and Self-Doubts

Hey, how are you today?

I’m feeling pretty good, but I must admit that I’m stressing out over my training and another half marathon I have coming up on Saturday. My training actually started off pretty good this week. I ran 3 easy miles on Monday and then 8 easy miles on Tuesday. I had 5 tempo miles planned for Wednesday and then 8 easy miles today and 5 easy miles again on Friday.

Do you see a pattern here? Running Easy…..maybe?

Running Easy

I re-evaluated my training plan and realized that far too many of my runs are too fast and I need to slow it down a bit during training and I’m hoping it makes a difference.

Unfortunately, there was a snag in my training this week because it rained practically all day yesterday and it was cold and windy and no matter how much I really wanted to, I just could not go running and I had to pass on my tempo run.

No time for runnin

So, that’s a major screw up on my part because it’s the only run on my schedule that even remotely resembles speedwork, so yeah, that’s not good. When I don’t have that one speed workout to help boost my confidence I start to suffer with self-doubt and that can be debilitating. I tried not to think about it and to just move forward and I got up early this morning and prepared to go out for an 8 mile run.

When I stepped out the back door all I could see was rain and dark skies….

Disapproving dog

Now, this was a conundrum, because while I needed to get those 8 miles in, it was freakin raining, hard, and it was balls-out cold and I just didn’t think I had it in me.

I went back in the house and started cleaning, (because that’s what weirdo’s with OCD like me do when we’re stressed out), and it helped me think about and rationalize the situation, which I did. After about 45 minutes, I grabbed my rain gear and headed out at 8am.

I wasn’t sure if I could do it but I planned on getting those 8 miles. Afterall, it was just 8 easy, slower miles. I made up my mind, I went out there, and I got it done.

Jonah Hill loves me

Thank you Jonah Hill. I knew you believed in me!

I felt like such a badass when I finished. I really did. Well, until I went to take a shower. My toes and my fingers were literally frozen. I forgot gloves and I wore the thinnest socks I own; plus I had to run through about 900 puddles so my feet were wet and cold. I needed to get out of those wet clothes and into the shower fast. Does it take everyone else an eternity to peel off their running clothes or is it just me?

Peeling off running clothes

It took me 20 minutes to peel off my clothes and 10 more to get the feeling back in my hands. Those capris that fit perfectly when I left this morning are two sizes too small when their soaking wet! How does that happen?

Anyhow, I feel much better now. I am still a little stressed that I didn’t get any speedwork in, but I’ve decided to practice positive self talk from now on, starting right now….

show that turtle whos boss!

So, how do you handle self-doubt or are you one of those amazing people who doesn’t ever have self-doubt?

Do you stress when you miss a day of training?

22 thoughts on “Running, Training and Self-Doubts

  1. Wow! You go girl! I probably would’ve went back to bed.
    I think most people struggle with self doubt. But most runners want to prove themselves wrong when doubts arise 😉

  2. Ugh self doubts …. Full of them ….. Woke up with a wicked sore throat and was scheduled to run 8 miles…..even reading how bad ass you were in the rain couldn’t motivate me to get out in 49degree rain at 4:30 am SO I went to the gym and ran my 8 on the much hated dread mill ….. I did wipe ff my germs though … How kind……self doubts that I’ll be in my best running mode in the am but we’ll see…. Only doing the 10k so it shouldn’t be an issue…. Picking up race # after school ….. Hope to see you sometime!!!! I promise not to give you my germs!:)

    • 🙂 You shouldn’t have any self-doubts, you’re speedy, and you are gonna kick some serious butt. The hubby has been sick all week long 🙁 and I haven’t even kissed him since Monday, ha. I’m going to do my best and hope for the best. I did run 6 more miles in the rain this morning…I’m kind of sick of rain…Hope to see you over there, I’m probably going over around 2ish…Hope you feel better too, sore throats suck!

  3. I wouldn’t stress over missing one day of training. My general rule is that I’m allowed 1 junk run each week because there is usually one day where I’m just not in the mood and I’d rather get the run in slow than not at all. And I miss a day ever once in a while and that’s okay too.
    I think the best thing is to wake up the next day and put it behind you; think about what you can do today to succeed today and don’t dwell on yesterday.

    • Good advice. I am working on that perfectionism thing and hopefully one day, I wont even think about missed days or little snags every now and then…;)

  4. I made a statement for myself that I will never skipp a training because ofthe weather. Never, no arguing (only some major swearing:-) ) .Hence no doubts any more, no missed training. I don’t doubt if to run with one shoe or 2, the same counts for weather : it’s there, it’s part of the road.

  5. Years ago I used to run & have to admit to loving the rain / cold more that the deadly hot days. Good for you getting yourself out there anyway! And think how much easier it’ll be when the weather improves

  6. Self doubt is what keeps me going—especially on the tough days when the weather sucks. Skipping a workout just reinforces the doubt, while braving the elements increases my confidence ( if I can run in ‘that’ weather, i can run in anything!).

  7. I have self-doubt about everything, not just running. Right now I’m wondering if I’ll be able to run two half marathons in May. Will my foot hold up? When will I be able to increase my long runs, since this weather sucks so badly?

    • I’ve read that all runners have self-doubt, even Kara Goucher but then I start to doubt that Kara Goucher has self-doubts….it’s a vicious cycle.

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